Unconditional Us

Early this morning I was awoken to thunderous waves of sound which prevented me from falling back to sleep. Generally, I would be greatly annoyed at the fact that I am wide awake at 2 AM, however today was different. I somehow became reflective, which happens fairly often, However, it is unusual that I became that way when I so desperately wished I was sleeping. I began to twirl thoughts around in my head about relationships, specifically friendship, and began to sort of count my blessings more or less. After two conversations with two best friends the past two days, one on the phone and one in person, I feel attention must be given to these relationships specifically and this type of relationship in general.

Lately, everything seems to be going well, I honestly can't believe it. I am nearly content and that is difficult to both understand and come to terms with. Normally, my daily habit of trudging along makes me most negative and yet, somehow, I become content with my own discontent. Things that seems to loom on the horizon but aren't quite graspable are discouraging at the very least, but some days can be completely debilitating. We all know those days. Those are the days spent watching something like "saved by the bell reruns" which I promise will make you feel even worse come the 10th straight hour of Zack, Slater, and Screech. I mean as great as Slater's biceps are, I'm telling you they get old Fast. This is where friendship is necessary, they save you from these moments or spend them with you which always makes everything better.

It seems I have to smile lately, I can't help it. I am so grateful for the people in my life and the system of support that exists within the bonds we share. True friendship is hard to find, but within the past few years I have realized what it is and how unbelievable the people are in my life. In addition to this I have realized how truly amazing the potential of existing friendships to develop into something so much stronger. Despite distance, we are there for each other, through the ups and downs and can laugh until we actually do pee our pants. yeah... Been there, Done that.. and it was worth it. (it was when I was much younger, I have to add that) A friend can morph into someone you consider family and becomes part of that idea "unconditional love." For a long time I thought Unconditional love seemed to be an old wives tale, but after much thought, it does seem to indeed be its own category of feeling. Unconditional love is necessary in life and to me, despite all things I want to see and do, this is what I value and want the very most. I would guess it is probably what most people want. Contentment and love seem to collide in life and their collision is something most beautiful.

It seems ridiculous to draw a comparison between the ladies in my life and the girls from the ever popular Sex and the City, but the idea of friendship or a relationship with deep roots is comforting when you have it. That is truly the best thing about that show after all, besides the fashion, (Pat Field is a fucking Genius) the idea of unconditional love between friends, lovers, parents, whoever it may be, well, I hope you experience it because it is intoxicating. It's the ability to still consider someone one of your best friends despite only talking on the phone once a week for two years but not seeing them. It's accepting someone for who they are and saying I love you and actually meaning it. That's unconditional and a bond that will last until the end, I'm sure it. Best friends, my girls, near and far. you know who you are and to everyone else that happens to read this too. my 1.5 readers. I love and appreciate you and just wanna thank you. I guess that's it.

Wishes
-Stitches

p.s. I can't believe how sappy I sound - yuck, :) but its how I feel on this day, in the sunshine after the storm.